but now shit needs to start settling. scratch that...i need to start settling shit within myself so that the external shit doesnt get to me anymore.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
limbo.
im feeling really unsettled and lost. thats an obvious statement coming from a 22 year old college graduate who just moved back home for 3 weeks, the longest she's been home in 2 years. unfortunately this feeling of lost is much more potent than usual because im chilling somewhere between familiar past and "no fucking idea" future. i feel distanced from my friends from college, from aiesec, from ecuador, and i only have one friend from high school who is still living in my hometown. in other words, ive been feeling really alone. not lonely, but alone. the economic situation in the usa has really hit my family hard, leaving my parents both stressed and miserable and ill-equipped to deal with themselves AND my pending "no fucking idea" future. this makes me feel even more alone and unsettled. god i hate limbo...
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I've been feeling that a lot these days as well, especially since for pretty much the first time ever I've had the past two months completely to myself, with absolutely no responsibilities. That is too much time to think. I'm glad you have Colombia coming up for you, perhaps I'll join you somewhere nearby in the near future!
P.S. Do you ever feel like there's just too many things you want to do with your life? That is the story of my life.
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