in the past 36 hours...

i have sent some of the most ridiculous cover letters i could imagine these firms every seeing. its a risky kinda week :)

after a 3 day marination...

i dont know if i can forgo colombia just yet. first off this opportunity isnt guaranteed, secondly i dont know if i want to work in corporate america right now, and thirdly the us economy in general just sucks balls and i kind of don't want to be a part of it.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. thats my mind farting. ok im done for now.

oy yoy yoy...

the past 3 days have been ridiculous. 2 hours after i wrote my last post EVERYTHING shifted. i got emails from friends about 6 opportunities in colombia and an out of the blue phone call from an amazing company based in NYC, heller communication design. this phone call was warranted supposedly from a really ballsy email i sent them asking if there was anyway i could attend their good brand camp at a discounted price. little did i know this would lead to a job negotiation. since then i have spoken to the co-founder and ceo of the company and have a "meeting" next thursday after the good brand camp workshop. it is literally everything i would be looking for in a job in the US; small and intimate workplace, innovation, design, creativity, risk taking, and humor.

now what about colombia...

within the next 10 years i want to do something involving social entrepreneurship, innovation and cultural experience. i had no preference for the order, so due to the HORRIBLE employment situation in the US i had decided to do my cultural experience first, throwing some social entrepreneurship in there by starting my own project. now that this opportunity is potentially in the mix i need to sit back and think about everything...

but who knows? maybe after next thursday ill realize things with hellercd just wont work out for either them or me and i will be off to colombia.

until then, ill just focus on doing things that make me happy and continue to take risks :)

my own story

this weekend was somewhat of a life turning point for me. i have been going through a continual change process since last year, a process met with insecurities, indecision, inconsistencies, and many other "in-" prefexed words. but this weekend the change process completed itself with the purging of the one thing that has been consistent over the past year; self-doubt. a series of fortunate events (disguised as unfortunate ones) made me finally step back, take a deep breath, and realize everything i have to offer. i'm an original, a one-of-a-kind. my life doesn't need to follow a pre-used strategy or path nor lease one for the time being. me taking a year to work in colombia isn't due to laziness or delaying of the real world, it's in fact the opposite. it's a way to show myself that i can really just pick up, move out, and make it on my own. the things i will do in life will require resourcefulness, adaptability, relationship building, and an understanding of being a minority. for me, a year of making my own in Colombia will lead to the acquisition of these skills more effectively than working as an i-banker at goldman.

but that's just me. my story hasn't been written yet...i'm here to write it and tell it in my own way.

late discovery

this weekend for the first time i figured out how to use cruise control. not only did i feel a sense of accomplishment but i also saved myself a quarter tank of gas :)

what i learned today

strive for moments of tea.

at the japanese tea ceremony demonstration today the leader explained how we should strive for moments of complete peace with oneself, known as moments of tea.

i didn't anticipate any profoundness from a statement like that, but nonetheless i found it.

and now i shall strive for moments of tea.